The first week kept me excited, always asking for more and had to do a lot of adjustments. From getting a hard time taking a sleep to what and when to eat, and doing the schedule for laundry.
But as days came into weeks I felt a little downtime and hopes are starting to get lost. I had to divert everything and make damn sure that I become strong and brave as I want to be. The 2nd and 3rd week had a lot of fun going out with Dada and Irene and finally had the first job interview. It kept me in high hopes and replenished perseverance.
After that, it kept me waiting. I know I have to keep going, I had to make fool of myself in front of the camera so that I can laugh. So that I will feel silly of myself. It has to be after crying myself into the situation.
I have to keep busy, I'm almost every minute active to social media so that I can update, I can chat with some other friends. But time came, I have to let go of Facebook. I deactivated it with some reasons, it has something to deal with my previous work and some people.
It is better to keep going on an empty mind that to be pre-occupied of what other people may say.
After applying the whole day, I kept myself busy playing with games installed on my phone. Games that my Sibe is playing and that she let me play when she's already tired.
The feeling is missing her everyday, I seldom speak to her.
The situation of my husband and daughter away from me is excruciating pain that I am always bearing.
I had to play the bravest, I had to. I had to keep going. Keeping on high hopes and positive mind.
And so the day came I have to do Exit 1.
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